I got a package from my mom yesterday, she sent me the CUTEST Christmas outfit for Ezekiel. It is my favorite so far. I just need to find little red pants to go with it, and he'll be all ready for Christmas!
No change with Amanda. She is scheduled to be off bedrest and Trebutaline on the 17th of this month.
I have been painting part of the changing table, but I ran out of white paint, so I'll need to get some more to finish that project.
I'm nervous about where we are going to stay when we get to Texas. I'm going to call Megan's friend Dana's parents, who live in Houston, to ask them if we can stay at their house. It's kind of an awkward phone call to make, but we can't afford to stay in a hotel for 2 weeks.
I'm feeling a little anxious about how everything is going to work out- at the hospital, the legal stuff, logistics, the transportation, etc. I think it's just because I have no idea what to expect, except that one way or another, I'm coming home with a baby.
People frequently question, in one form or another, whether I'm nervous about Amanda changing her mind. Frankly, I'm not. Every time she goes back to the hospital, she re-assures us that she's not changing her mind, via Dana. And I simply can't be thinking things like that. I'm truly not worried about it, I have complete faith that she will do what she says she will do.
When I hold Phineas, it just does not really click in my brain that I'll be having a baby that size soon. I look at him, but it doesn't register with me. I can't get past the feeling that at some point, I'll just give him back to someone. I guess it'll be a real shock for my mind when it realizes that he belongs to me.
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