December baby

*Well, it's for certain now. Our first baby will be a December baby. I think we all thought she would have given birth by now.

*I sterilized baby bottles and nipples tonight. That was weird.

*I didn't realize how stressful waiting could be. I feel like I'm ready to kick it into high gear at any moment. Every night I make sure all the dishes are done and the kitchen is clean before I go to bed, in case Dana calls in the middle of the night, telling us it is time to go. I don't want to leave home with a dirty kitchen!

*I have some good days and some bad days as far as my anxiety level goes. Earlier this week I was struggling with the financial aspect of the adoption. My faith was weak, and I was afraid that we will not be able to pay for this adoption. It was consuming my thoughts. Nathanael reminded me that we, he and I, are numbered among the faithful and now is an amazing opportunity for us to demonstrate our faith. Now is the time to be confident and brave, not shrink back in fear and anxiety. If we knew how everything was going to be paid for, then we wouldn't need faith, would we? God can do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine.

*I sold a Christmas tree and motorcycle jacket today, unexpectedly. That was money that we were not counting on (see above bullet). God is good!

*Amanda's last doctor appointment was on Tuesday. They "stripped her membrane". That sounds awful, I can barely even say it. It sounds so violating. I was a little freaked out that that meant she was going to go into labor that night, so I was a bit frantic. I'm a little more calm now.

*I'm checking the southwest website every day to see what Rapids Rewards flights are still available. I'm praying they don't sell out before we need them.

*I quite possibly heard the most ignorant and thoughtless thing that has maybe ever been said about adoption this week. I wish I was keeping track of all the stupid things people say.